By 2018 I was massively overworked, chronically exhausted and stressed, sad and terribly unhappy. I was working in an exceptionally toxic and hostile environment and the business I had at the time was growing at a rate I couldn’t keep up with by myself. I had what felt like everyone constantly demanding my attention and energy, I was constantly assessed based solely on what I looked like and my stress levels were way past the phrase ‘through the roof’. The amount of pressure I felt like I was under was completely suffocating me.
The only person I wasn’t giving any attention or energy to was myself and I was really suffering. I had insomnia for over a year, anxiety that was so bad some days simply leaving the house felt like a huge task, I would repeatedly have panic attacks in the middle of the night and I was physically unwell. I constantly had stomach ache, my joints ached, my skin was terrible and my hormones were all over the place. Every day would end with me feeling nauseous, with headaches and sometimes vertigo. My body and my mind were completely out of balance. Something absolutely had to change. I highlighted everything in my life that was no longer feeding my soul and having felt like I’d been in that ‘rock bottom’ position 8 years earlier I returned to the things that I knew I needed back in my life. My beloved yoga and meditation. Three days later I flew to Croatia to stay on an Ashram for a month. This decision changed my life.
My sheer love and contentment within yoga and meditation was reborn and strengthened even more so. Away from all forms of technology, outside influence and negative stress i’d finally found the path I had felt so lost in finding. I slept solidly every night, my anxiety and panic attacks disappeared, I no longer had stomach ache, vertigo or nausea and my hormones became effortlessly balanced. I had found my peace and decided I was doing the world abit of an injustice by not sharing this powerful way of life with others.
My hometown offers so little in the form of spiritual practice and yogic teachings and I felt I had a duty to bring more of this to our town with an open and authentic heart and give people the opportunity to find solace and expression within exactly what we offer here at Varchisa. Whether it is physical, mental or spiritual development you are trying to find, I promise with time you can find it through yoga. My mission is to build a community for all who are on their own journey of curiosity and discovery or for those who simply wish for calm, guidance and support, just as I did.